Day 36: October 31, 2011

"We are 

each of us angels

with only one wing,

and we can fly

only by embracing 

each other."

-Lucian de Crescenzo

I've always hated the phrase "everything happens for a reason". Anytime I have someone say that to me I ask them to then give me the reason, and that usually shuts them up. But it's always been my belief that people are brought into our lives for a reason.

To teach us things about life, and about ourselves that we could never learn on our own.

To help us discover who we are. And where the hell we're supposed to fit into this crazy world. 

Some people show us what love, friendship, trust, and happiness are.

And from others we learn hate, betrayal, disappointment, and sadness. 

No matter which category they fall under, we will always remember them.

Our truest friends will not only be simply remembered.

They are those that come into our lives leaving their handprints on our hearts.

They are the ones who help shape us each day.

Who laugh when we laugh.

Who cry when we cry.

Our truest friends are the ones who are standing there beside us when it feels like the whole world has left us behind.

THESE are the people we must care about.

For they are rare, they are beautiful.

Friendships like this have the power to change your life forever.

Do not let them pass you by.

Day 35: October 23, 2011

Oh, hi there. Nice to see you again. I've missed you. Well, by that I guess I really mean that I miss the days when I used to actually have time to do this blogging thing every day. 

I miss the days when things were so simple. I mean, of course at the time none of it seemed simple because in high school you strive for drama. But now... I could do without it, and be perfectly content. But alas, without complications what would keep life so exciting? hmm? 

Are you happy in life, at this very moment.

 Are you happy?

I asked my friend Ben this question just randomly one day, as nothing serious I just wanted to see what he would say. And Ben being the supermegaawesome person that he is said he was, in fact, happy. He then returned the question to me and I replied with something along the lines of hell no! (Our dorm's fire alarm was going off for the third week in a row and I was left waiting outside in the heat with my huge bag of laundry.) Which (kind of) jokingly, left me very unhappy with life. 

"No one is in control of your happiness but you; therefore, you have the power to change anything about yourself or your life that you want to change." -Barbara de Angelis

I found this quote on google earlier today, and it stuck out to me because this is where I find a huge fault within myself. So often I let others hinder my happiness. Mind you, that also goes the other way around. Without the select few who I am lucky enough to call my friends, I would not know the kind of joy, care, and laughter that I do today. But I really do let what others say or do to me get to me too much. I forget that I am the one who is truly in control of my own happiness. People hurting you, or betraying your trust is simply inevitable, but you have the ability to control how much you let it effect you. 

I had a moment today when I was getting upset over a certain situation and then one of my best friends just sent me something simple and it made me laugh, and I'm talking one of those from the gut laughs. And it dawned on me, why focus on the people who hurt you and let you down when on the other hand you have people who can make you belly laugh?! I mean HELLO?! We, as far as I know, have one life to live. And I don't know about you but I want to spend as many of my days being as truly happy as I can. 

"EVERY MOMENT IS A GIFT.

     SPEND IT ON THINGS THAT MATTER."

              -Unknown

LIVE.LAUGH.LOVE WASTEFULLY.

 jkhkjhjkhjkjkdsakjb

Day 34: October 4, 2011

So... uhm, yeah. Posting a blog every day is going reh-he-he-heeeallly well, wouldn't you say? 

But hey, as long as I get to my 365 goal and I cross it off of my Bucket list I will be a happy camper. Even if it takes years, but seriously, it better not. 

What has changed since my last post...

Dorm food still sucks. (Not that I'm expecting that to ever really change.)

I've discovered that my roommate has a laugh that could probably annoy even the most peaceful and loving person on this planet. I'm talking Ghandi would drop-kick her if he ever heard it. (JK LEAH<3)

Parking has gotten a bit better, I'm guessing the dumb people who kept parking in our lot without a permit finally got tired of getting tickets every day. Hoorayyyy.

I've learned that if I ever live in a dorm again, I do not want community bathrooms. Ever. Ever ever. Like, for real I don't know why Leah talked me into this. I've already experienced wildlife (a tiny gecko), girls who think they are the next American Idol, that awkward moment when you're already in the shower and you realize that you forgot your towel down the hall in your room. Just overall, not worth it.

And as time has gone on I have continued to learn who my true friends are. Those who said they were going to stay in touch, but have yet to say a word. Or the ones you thought were some of your best friends and they barely speak to you. But I have to say some of the best parts of college so far has been meeting all of the new people and making friends. I already have some friends in a few of my classes that I know are going to help get me into some kind of trouble (like getting us completely lost in Dallas, cough cough), but it will keep things exciting I'm sure!

I'm sure I have said it before, but I'll say it again. I feel like I have learned more in these few months of college than I learned in my four years of high school. I feel like I've also learned a lot more about myself as well, and everyone's always telling me that that's what college is all about. 

Oh, and I guess one more big change would be that I now have a boyfriend, Garrett. Who has not only been a fantastic boyfriend so far, but even before that proved to be an amazing friend to me. He's one of those people who always sees things the way they truly are, and that may not make sense to anyone, but he'll get it. If he's reading this... hi Garrett. I'm learning a lot from him (mostly how to appreciate country music -__-) but he also shows me that I deserve to stand up for myself, and that I deserve true happiness too. Anyway, before this gets tooooo sappy. I just want to say that Garrett makes me happy each and every day, and I can only hope to repay him for all that he's already done for me.

So yeah, that's pretty much where I am.

Now, I need to study and do some homework. And sleep if there's time.

LIVE.LAUGH.LOVE WASTEFULLY.