Day 33: September 11, 2011

Forever remember 09/11/01


Uh yeah, so... Who's idea was it to start a blog right before starting college?! Because seriously... it's not working out so well. I would apologize, but really I think the only person I'm letting down here is myself. I hate looking back and seeing that I haven't posted in a week, and when I did the most significant thing I had to say was that the dorm food sucked (which is still true..) But seriously, balancing time has been a challenge.
My roommate and I somehow managed to get into three of the same classes, but for some completely unfair reason we have had the least amount of homework in those three classes. So when I come home at the end of the day with 3 hours of home work she may come back with 45 mins only. But I am still enjoying my classes, Environmental science still seems like it's going to kick my a$$, but I need the challenge.. right?
Other than classes, school is pretty cool. Our room saw a lot of excitement today... We got 3 new rugs that (kinda) match our stuff... :) We got a newly used microwave and when we went to plug it in we blew our first fuse and went without AC for a bit. And then Leah kindly replaced my broken lamp with a new one... and it still doesn't work, so we're still looking into that problem. But while Leah was out and about working and getting all of those new and exciting things I was stuck here writing a two page fable for english, and I really liked the way it turned out. And when it's due in a few weeks I will probably post it on here to show you all my mad fable skills.
Anyhoo, I just had a few spare moments to blog and thought I would just do some quick updates. Hopefully next time I will have something a little more significant to say, but no promises. I saw this quote the other day and found it absolutely inspiring. I hope it can inspire some of you as well. Miss you. :)

"I want to learn about the world.

I want to surprise myself.

I want to be important.

I want to be the best person I can be.

I want to define myself, instead of having others define me.

I want to not be afraid of the unknown.

I want an interesting and surprising life.

It's not that I think I'm going to get all of these things.

I just want the possibility of getting them.

The possibility that things are going to change, and I can't wait."

LIVE.LAUGH.LOVE WASTEFULLY.

Day 32: September 4, 2011

"We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken."
-LOOKING FOR ALASKA ; John Green




I survived my first week of college. 
I got lost, I think I did poorly on a test, there was a gecko in my shower, I laughed, I cried, my car was completely COVERED in bird feces, I made friends, and I feel like I may have lost some... 
BUT I SURVIVED.
And I feel like I've learned more in the past 2 weeks then I learned in my 4 years of high school, and that's the honest truth. It truly has put things into perspective. It's shown me who my true friends are, it's shown me that you may think that you know someone... but wait until they're on their own, to see who they truly are. College has defined "trust" for me. College has shown me that I probably should have listened to my mom all those times she tried to show me how to make simple dishes... :/ The dorm food gets older every day... College has taught me that thankfully church trips over the years prepared me for what it's like to go a full day off of only a couple hours of sleep!
But overall, college has taught me that the most important thing is to enjoy. 

Enjoy your classes, enjoy walking around this beautiful campus.. despite this awful heat, enjoy all of the hilarious memories you make each day that you know you are going to remember for the rest of your life.
ENJOY LIFE.
Even when it sucks.
Even when people sucks.
Things WILL get better, they simply have to.
Stick in there, do your homework, get some sleep.


OH, and buy some new milk, because the stuff in your mini fridge got a little chunky over the weekend. -_-

LIVE.LAUGH. LOVE WASTEFULLY.

Day 31: August 29, 2011

I will forever remember my first weekend in college.
That's for sure.


I feel like moving into a dorm, and living with a friend instead of my parents has forced me to grow up so much in just the past week that it's seriously mind blowing. I remember months ago I used to dread college, I never wanted to think about it because quite frankly it scared the poop out of me. And now, here I am. Starting my second week of classes, going on my second week of living on my own and I'm still alive. So I'd say I'm doing pretty good.
There have been a few things that have happened over the past week that have been a little, well, stressful. But luckily I have some amazing friends that stick by me and help me through all the mess! Seriously, I wake up every day and realize over and over again not only how lucky I am to have the friends that I do, but also to be where I am today. I know before I came here I was worried that it would only ever be UNT, you know, just down the street from home. But in just a few days it has proven to be so much more than that. I've already felt myself begin to grow and mature, and hell it's only the second week. 
So as the homework piles up, and the dorm food gets crappier... I just can't wait to see what else lies ahead for me.


=)

Day 30: August 26, 2011

PARKING SUCKS.

DORM FOOD...MEH.

HEAT SUCKS.

ANNOYING FAN THAT WON'T STOP MAKING NOISES ALL DAY SUCKS.

EVERYTHING ELSE=AWESOME.

So I have now been through my first two days of college classes, and so far they seem to be pretty freaking awesome. I admit that I am looking forward to some more than others, but all in all they're looking great. And as far as our dorms location, I must say that it freaking rocks. Because we're pretty much right at the center of campus. So at most it takes me about 10 minutes to walk to each of my classes. One thing that's way different from high school is the size of the classes, I'm used to maybe 25-30 kids in a class. But walking into History with Leah and seeing like 60-75 seats filled was insane. And in my Theatre Appreciation class our teacher said we were expecting 102 students! I only had one class today so that was pretty awesome, and it was English, with only about 25 students even more awesome. And I have a feeling that it's going to quickly become my favorite class. I've always loved English, and writing and reading and all that jazz. But 1. our teacher just seemed genuine and fantastic and 2. when she was talking about what all we would be doing throughout the course it wasn't all about writing papers and doing research. It was about learning, and discovering more each day about ourselves, and who we are and about the world around us. And I just thought that was really cool. Because THAT'S what I want to do, THAT'S what I want to take away from a class at the end of the day. So, I'll keep you updated on that I'm sure.

Dorm life has been, fun. It's been so amazing to finally be on my own. It's been kind of weird when you just have those moments when you realize that you don't have anyone checking up on you anymore. That you're responsible for yourself now. But it's been great! I thought the community bathrooms were going to be a challenge, but they haven't been so bad.. Not going to lie, my sleep schedule has been a little funky just because we like to stay up and hang out and watch movies and stuff, but when classes get a bit more serious I'm sure that will change. But yeah, dorm food... meh.

And parking still sucks. That won't ever change.

Overall, I'm calling this a very successful first week. It's been stressful, overwhelming, but most of all just flat out fun. And I definitely have memories and stories that I know I will remember and tell for the rest of my life, and in my book... that's what counts.

LIVE.LAUGH.LOVE WASTEFULLY.

Day 29: August 24: 2011

"Follow your INCLINATION

and EXPLORE"

That quote was said to us by one of the head honchos of UNT today at our Freshman welcome rally. Where we were all corralled into one large place, told that we are the largest class in the school's history, and reassured time and time again that we were NOT "settling" by choosing UNT as our College of choice. Good times...

Today I walked around campus and found my classes for the next two days, all pretty close to my dorm which is nice. And I would just like it to be noted that Leah and I actually woke up early enough to make it for breakfast serving time! So that was a bonus to this iffy day. 

Sorry today's post is short and a little pointless, but classes start tomorrow and I want to try and actually get some sleep, unlike the 4 hours I got last night... 

LIVE.LAUGH.LOVE WASTEFULLY.

Day 28: August 23, 2011

Dorm living, awww yeahhhh! I am loving it! It's been an adventure, I can say that! Moving in was a task, and reminded me that one day I would really like to move to a state that is much cooler than Texas (temperature wise, that is.) Luckily everyone around was really nice and we ran into this really nice guy who helped us with all of our heavy boxes. Once everything was in and our parents were gone it finally hit Leah and I that this was the start of our new beginning that we had been waiting for, and it was a great moment.
We then spent the next six hours being girls, putting away all of our clothes, and decorating the walls. Because if you know me, I can't stand to look at a blank wall! I wish I could do a panaramic picture so you guys could see our full room because most of the decorations are on the sides of where I was standing, but I figured this was the typical view.
So far we've just been hanging around, watching movies, getting groceries and more decorations, and sleeping! The only downside to our dorm so far has been that our cafeteria is under construction, and we were told this morning that it probably won't be done until January. So for now, three times a day (ideally, of course.) we have to walk 10 minutes across campus to a different dorm to get our grub on. But I guess that will just help us avoid that freshman 15lbs, right?
Overall, things have been going really well. We have one more free day until classes start on Thursday! And I just have to say PARKING AT UNT SUCKSSSSSSS! But everyday is a learning experience, and I am thankful for it. I'm excited for this year and everything that it will bring.
Also, I don't know if my blogs will include picture for a while. I can't get my Mac to put them on here. (I ran home to grab a few things from my room, and to post this on my old laptop) So, be patient until I can have some Mac genius show me how it's done.
I hope everyone who has already started school is having a good time, and to those who start later this week, stay positive and everything will be okay!

LIVE.LAUGH.LOVE WASTEFULLY.

Day 27: August 20, 2011

T-minus less than 24 hours until I move out...

Today was a wildly successful day, if I do say so myself. I slept through my alarm because I stayed up WAY to late reading last night. (SO worth it though) When I finally woke up I got straight to packing, I put the rest of my belongings away in those little brown and white boxes and I realized that 1. I'm really, really good at packing boxes and 2. holy crap I'm going to be living on my own tomorrow. Well, technically not on my own, own. But with a girl I've never even spent the night with before. Adventure? I think so.

And I know that I like, seriously went extremely fangirl in yesterday's blog over "Looking for Alaska" but I honestly don't think I could have read this book at a better time. And yes, you read that right, I already finished the book. And it's not because it was written poorly, as a matter of fact it's the complete opposite. His writing, and the story completely sucks you in and keeps you wanting to know more every time you pick it up to read. And this may sound weird, but I feel like I have grown as a person from reading it. I shared a few quotes from it yesterday and I am going to again today and I made sure to pick some that have absolutely NO spoilers. However, I will assure you that it is NOT a gushy love story like the back of the book makes you believe it to be, trust me.

"She turned away from me, and softly, maybe to herself, said "Jesus, I'm not going to be one of those people who sits around talking about what they're gonna do. I'm just going to do it. Imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia."

"Huh?" I asked.

"You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.""

Holy poop, isn't his writing just beautiful?! And as you can see, I am obviously lacking in whatever magical gene he was blessed with having if I'm starting off my sentence with "holy poop" but whatever. When I read this part I felt like I could really relate to everything Alaska was saying. I'm always saying that I HATE JUST SAYING that I'm going to go out and do something. Word's are just words until you give them some kind of meaning. And that line "Imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia." Melts.My.Heart. Fun Fact: John Green's wife actually said that to him on their first date, heck.. I would have married her too. Kidding... And then the last paragraph she says is something I will write out and put above my bed or something. So often I think we all try to use both our past, and our future as an excuse to escape.

"Those awful things are survivable, because we are as indestructible as we believe ourselves to be. When adults say, "Teenagers thing they are invincible" with that sly, stupid smile on their faces, they don't know how right they are. We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken. We think that we are invincible because we are."

This quote comes from one of the very last pages in the novel, which let me just warn you, the last 3 pages are the most hard hitting truths of the entire novel. Pretty much filled with words exactly like the ones above. Simply amazing. The part I have bolded is another quote that I think will forever stick with me. I don't feel like I need to say anything about it, but just read over it a few times, and then a few times more.

And then finally after the book is over and you are just sitting there in awe of what you have just read there is an interview of where they ask John like 10 questions and one of them was asking him about the metaphor of the "Great Perhaps" and about how he talked about the "radical hope" and in his answer he said this...

"And that's why I write fiction,probably. It's my attempt to keep that fragile strand of radical hope, to build a fire in the darkness."

John Green is my hero, not only because of his book. But also because of the videos he and his brother make weekly and for the amazing charity work they constantly do to decrease worldsuck. Like I said, I don't think I could have read this book at a better time. If anyone finds themselves with maybe ever 10 minutes of free time a day, I really encourage you to read this book. It leads you to really start thinking about who you are as a friend, a lover, and most importantly a person.

LIVE.LAUGH.LOVE WASTEFULLY.