Day 36: October 31, 2011

"We are 

each of us angels

with only one wing,

and we can fly

only by embracing 

each other."

-Lucian de Crescenzo

I've always hated the phrase "everything happens for a reason". Anytime I have someone say that to me I ask them to then give me the reason, and that usually shuts them up. But it's always been my belief that people are brought into our lives for a reason.

To teach us things about life, and about ourselves that we could never learn on our own.

To help us discover who we are. And where the hell we're supposed to fit into this crazy world. 

Some people show us what love, friendship, trust, and happiness are.

And from others we learn hate, betrayal, disappointment, and sadness. 

No matter which category they fall under, we will always remember them.

Our truest friends will not only be simply remembered.

They are those that come into our lives leaving their handprints on our hearts.

They are the ones who help shape us each day.

Who laugh when we laugh.

Who cry when we cry.

Our truest friends are the ones who are standing there beside us when it feels like the whole world has left us behind.

THESE are the people we must care about.

For they are rare, they are beautiful.

Friendships like this have the power to change your life forever.

Do not let them pass you by.

Day 35: October 23, 2011

Oh, hi there. Nice to see you again. I've missed you. Well, by that I guess I really mean that I miss the days when I used to actually have time to do this blogging thing every day. 

I miss the days when things were so simple. I mean, of course at the time none of it seemed simple because in high school you strive for drama. But now... I could do without it, and be perfectly content. But alas, without complications what would keep life so exciting? hmm? 

Are you happy in life, at this very moment.

 Are you happy?

I asked my friend Ben this question just randomly one day, as nothing serious I just wanted to see what he would say. And Ben being the supermegaawesome person that he is said he was, in fact, happy. He then returned the question to me and I replied with something along the lines of hell no! (Our dorm's fire alarm was going off for the third week in a row and I was left waiting outside in the heat with my huge bag of laundry.) Which (kind of) jokingly, left me very unhappy with life. 

"No one is in control of your happiness but you; therefore, you have the power to change anything about yourself or your life that you want to change." -Barbara de Angelis

I found this quote on google earlier today, and it stuck out to me because this is where I find a huge fault within myself. So often I let others hinder my happiness. Mind you, that also goes the other way around. Without the select few who I am lucky enough to call my friends, I would not know the kind of joy, care, and laughter that I do today. But I really do let what others say or do to me get to me too much. I forget that I am the one who is truly in control of my own happiness. People hurting you, or betraying your trust is simply inevitable, but you have the ability to control how much you let it effect you. 

I had a moment today when I was getting upset over a certain situation and then one of my best friends just sent me something simple and it made me laugh, and I'm talking one of those from the gut laughs. And it dawned on me, why focus on the people who hurt you and let you down when on the other hand you have people who can make you belly laugh?! I mean HELLO?! We, as far as I know, have one life to live. And I don't know about you but I want to spend as many of my days being as truly happy as I can. 

"EVERY MOMENT IS A GIFT.

     SPEND IT ON THINGS THAT MATTER."

              -Unknown

LIVE.LAUGH.LOVE WASTEFULLY.

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Day 34: October 4, 2011

So... uhm, yeah. Posting a blog every day is going reh-he-he-heeeallly well, wouldn't you say? 

But hey, as long as I get to my 365 goal and I cross it off of my Bucket list I will be a happy camper. Even if it takes years, but seriously, it better not. 

What has changed since my last post...

Dorm food still sucks. (Not that I'm expecting that to ever really change.)

I've discovered that my roommate has a laugh that could probably annoy even the most peaceful and loving person on this planet. I'm talking Ghandi would drop-kick her if he ever heard it. (JK LEAH<3)

Parking has gotten a bit better, I'm guessing the dumb people who kept parking in our lot without a permit finally got tired of getting tickets every day. Hoorayyyy.

I've learned that if I ever live in a dorm again, I do not want community bathrooms. Ever. Ever ever. Like, for real I don't know why Leah talked me into this. I've already experienced wildlife (a tiny gecko), girls who think they are the next American Idol, that awkward moment when you're already in the shower and you realize that you forgot your towel down the hall in your room. Just overall, not worth it.

And as time has gone on I have continued to learn who my true friends are. Those who said they were going to stay in touch, but have yet to say a word. Or the ones you thought were some of your best friends and they barely speak to you. But I have to say some of the best parts of college so far has been meeting all of the new people and making friends. I already have some friends in a few of my classes that I know are going to help get me into some kind of trouble (like getting us completely lost in Dallas, cough cough), but it will keep things exciting I'm sure!

I'm sure I have said it before, but I'll say it again. I feel like I have learned more in these few months of college than I learned in my four years of high school. I feel like I've also learned a lot more about myself as well, and everyone's always telling me that that's what college is all about. 

Oh, and I guess one more big change would be that I now have a boyfriend, Garrett. Who has not only been a fantastic boyfriend so far, but even before that proved to be an amazing friend to me. He's one of those people who always sees things the way they truly are, and that may not make sense to anyone, but he'll get it. If he's reading this... hi Garrett. I'm learning a lot from him (mostly how to appreciate country music -__-) but he also shows me that I deserve to stand up for myself, and that I deserve true happiness too. Anyway, before this gets tooooo sappy. I just want to say that Garrett makes me happy each and every day, and I can only hope to repay him for all that he's already done for me.

So yeah, that's pretty much where I am.

Now, I need to study and do some homework. And sleep if there's time.

LIVE.LAUGH.LOVE WASTEFULLY.

Day 33: September 11, 2011

Forever remember 09/11/01


Uh yeah, so... Who's idea was it to start a blog right before starting college?! Because seriously... it's not working out so well. I would apologize, but really I think the only person I'm letting down here is myself. I hate looking back and seeing that I haven't posted in a week, and when I did the most significant thing I had to say was that the dorm food sucked (which is still true..) But seriously, balancing time has been a challenge.
My roommate and I somehow managed to get into three of the same classes, but for some completely unfair reason we have had the least amount of homework in those three classes. So when I come home at the end of the day with 3 hours of home work she may come back with 45 mins only. But I am still enjoying my classes, Environmental science still seems like it's going to kick my a$$, but I need the challenge.. right?
Other than classes, school is pretty cool. Our room saw a lot of excitement today... We got 3 new rugs that (kinda) match our stuff... :) We got a newly used microwave and when we went to plug it in we blew our first fuse and went without AC for a bit. And then Leah kindly replaced my broken lamp with a new one... and it still doesn't work, so we're still looking into that problem. But while Leah was out and about working and getting all of those new and exciting things I was stuck here writing a two page fable for english, and I really liked the way it turned out. And when it's due in a few weeks I will probably post it on here to show you all my mad fable skills.
Anyhoo, I just had a few spare moments to blog and thought I would just do some quick updates. Hopefully next time I will have something a little more significant to say, but no promises. I saw this quote the other day and found it absolutely inspiring. I hope it can inspire some of you as well. Miss you. :)

"I want to learn about the world.

I want to surprise myself.

I want to be important.

I want to be the best person I can be.

I want to define myself, instead of having others define me.

I want to not be afraid of the unknown.

I want an interesting and surprising life.

It's not that I think I'm going to get all of these things.

I just want the possibility of getting them.

The possibility that things are going to change, and I can't wait."

LIVE.LAUGH.LOVE WASTEFULLY.

Day 32: September 4, 2011

"We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken."
-LOOKING FOR ALASKA ; John Green




I survived my first week of college. 
I got lost, I think I did poorly on a test, there was a gecko in my shower, I laughed, I cried, my car was completely COVERED in bird feces, I made friends, and I feel like I may have lost some... 
BUT I SURVIVED.
And I feel like I've learned more in the past 2 weeks then I learned in my 4 years of high school, and that's the honest truth. It truly has put things into perspective. It's shown me who my true friends are, it's shown me that you may think that you know someone... but wait until they're on their own, to see who they truly are. College has defined "trust" for me. College has shown me that I probably should have listened to my mom all those times she tried to show me how to make simple dishes... :/ The dorm food gets older every day... College has taught me that thankfully church trips over the years prepared me for what it's like to go a full day off of only a couple hours of sleep!
But overall, college has taught me that the most important thing is to enjoy. 

Enjoy your classes, enjoy walking around this beautiful campus.. despite this awful heat, enjoy all of the hilarious memories you make each day that you know you are going to remember for the rest of your life.
ENJOY LIFE.
Even when it sucks.
Even when people sucks.
Things WILL get better, they simply have to.
Stick in there, do your homework, get some sleep.


OH, and buy some new milk, because the stuff in your mini fridge got a little chunky over the weekend. -_-

LIVE.LAUGH. LOVE WASTEFULLY.

Day 31: August 29, 2011

I will forever remember my first weekend in college.
That's for sure.


I feel like moving into a dorm, and living with a friend instead of my parents has forced me to grow up so much in just the past week that it's seriously mind blowing. I remember months ago I used to dread college, I never wanted to think about it because quite frankly it scared the poop out of me. And now, here I am. Starting my second week of classes, going on my second week of living on my own and I'm still alive. So I'd say I'm doing pretty good.
There have been a few things that have happened over the past week that have been a little, well, stressful. But luckily I have some amazing friends that stick by me and help me through all the mess! Seriously, I wake up every day and realize over and over again not only how lucky I am to have the friends that I do, but also to be where I am today. I know before I came here I was worried that it would only ever be UNT, you know, just down the street from home. But in just a few days it has proven to be so much more than that. I've already felt myself begin to grow and mature, and hell it's only the second week. 
So as the homework piles up, and the dorm food gets crappier... I just can't wait to see what else lies ahead for me.


=)

Day 30: August 26, 2011

PARKING SUCKS.

DORM FOOD...MEH.

HEAT SUCKS.

ANNOYING FAN THAT WON'T STOP MAKING NOISES ALL DAY SUCKS.

EVERYTHING ELSE=AWESOME.

So I have now been through my first two days of college classes, and so far they seem to be pretty freaking awesome. I admit that I am looking forward to some more than others, but all in all they're looking great. And as far as our dorms location, I must say that it freaking rocks. Because we're pretty much right at the center of campus. So at most it takes me about 10 minutes to walk to each of my classes. One thing that's way different from high school is the size of the classes, I'm used to maybe 25-30 kids in a class. But walking into History with Leah and seeing like 60-75 seats filled was insane. And in my Theatre Appreciation class our teacher said we were expecting 102 students! I only had one class today so that was pretty awesome, and it was English, with only about 25 students even more awesome. And I have a feeling that it's going to quickly become my favorite class. I've always loved English, and writing and reading and all that jazz. But 1. our teacher just seemed genuine and fantastic and 2. when she was talking about what all we would be doing throughout the course it wasn't all about writing papers and doing research. It was about learning, and discovering more each day about ourselves, and who we are and about the world around us. And I just thought that was really cool. Because THAT'S what I want to do, THAT'S what I want to take away from a class at the end of the day. So, I'll keep you updated on that I'm sure.

Dorm life has been, fun. It's been so amazing to finally be on my own. It's been kind of weird when you just have those moments when you realize that you don't have anyone checking up on you anymore. That you're responsible for yourself now. But it's been great! I thought the community bathrooms were going to be a challenge, but they haven't been so bad.. Not going to lie, my sleep schedule has been a little funky just because we like to stay up and hang out and watch movies and stuff, but when classes get a bit more serious I'm sure that will change. But yeah, dorm food... meh.

And parking still sucks. That won't ever change.

Overall, I'm calling this a very successful first week. It's been stressful, overwhelming, but most of all just flat out fun. And I definitely have memories and stories that I know I will remember and tell for the rest of my life, and in my book... that's what counts.

LIVE.LAUGH.LOVE WASTEFULLY.